At my last doctor's appointment, my doctor said, "You're doing great, and it's really all downhill from here..."
That made me really excited and then all at once a little sick to my stomach.
I mean, I'm just now getting comfortable with being pregnant. I finally have a baby bump, and I can feel my little man learning to spin and do martial arts inside his warm, comfy home. I can't keep my hands off my belly; I love feeling Baby Washburn move around, it's the most exhilerating experience! I can't wait to meet our little guy, but one word/thought really makes me want to cry: crowning.
That word brings me back to like 3rd or 4th grade when we had to watch "The Miracle of Life" video -- I was horrified!! Even at such a young age, I couldn't believe that women would ever do such a thing as give birth. What woman would ever agree to have a 5-10lb baby, comparable to the size of a watermelon EXIT their body?!
...and yet here I am! Excited and scared as h*ll! LOL!
Also, the fact that the baby's exit will happen in front of an "audience" of doctors and nurses makes delivery (aka going to the theater) that much scarier. I really am afraid. I know women go through childbirth everyday and have for thousands and thousands of years, but when it's you and not someone else, it puts things in perspective. You really can't understand something until you've been through it. This is one roller coaster ride I'm not sure if I'm ready for, but since I'm almost at the top of that first big drop, all I can do is hold on and scream AAAAaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! all the way to the end ;)
Having a baby is probably one of my greatest fears, but I know it will also be one of my proudest accomplishments in life.
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